Beningging

In the beningging of that 2 sec, all was good.

and then the thoughts didnt waste time about coming in and waking me up all from it.

cos 2 sec was all i was allowed. like a momentary relapse i temporarily escaped from, only to relapse any way by the emd of 2 seconds.

if love was a 2 way street, why am i the only one in Two Seconds Street. 

I didn't ask for it. I fought so hard just to regularly coming back to feeling lost. And no one else was competing in this with me. 

My chest feels all so heavy than it already is. My back gives way a thousand times, and Im questioning if it has truly manifested in a physical way.

The transparency of my emotions to me isn't a way to release but rather to escape from it. Though deep down I kmow it doesnt. 

So 2 seconds, and everyrhing else that felt important, has only made me feel its important. 

I dont know what im typing because my brain is on lock.