It was a confession and also the end of what could have been the most beautiful relationship 30 to 40 years down the road.
I can't say all that's happened. But from my perspective of the whole thing. Even till now, it affects me so badly. Yet, only time can heal its wounds. And I gotta accept what was first for me would be the very last in my entire life. Because, face it Syazana, you' had countless opportunities, you blew every single one of them. Just because the vibe wasn't right. And you will keep doing that till one day the vibe is right when it always was. Trust in yourself is what you lack.
The countless number of excuses to cover up your real emotions. Hoping someone out there could read between the lines you speak, that's really realistic right, Syazana?
Self-Talk people... Its a coping strategy. Because reflecting on everything that has happened. You chose to immerse yourself in so many activities at one time. You face the consequences of having to understand every single situation at one time.
When I wasn't able to be empathetic about anything you were talking, somehow God was able to give me the exact real situations to happen within the shortest period of time.
On top of that, despite all that, it was all worthless. Every single attempt of mine has gone down the drain.
Wanting to change into a better person. Well, you have, except you lose out so many.
I really hate myself. And I miss my Aunt.
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