I hate birthdays

Every birthday reminds me that I was brought into this damned life.
Im angry. Pissed. Fed up. Just when I thought I earned the trust from my parents. They do it again. Making me feel like Im some kid. Im really tired of being the eldest. They use it as a reason to scold me everytime.. The way Im ranting right now shows how immature I am. But seriously, what's it take to gain trust from them??
"Who do you think you are ?
Don't take advantage  of the leniency that we show you.
Don't abuse the freedom that we give you.
And most of all don't test our patience.
If you stubbornly refuse to change your ways we have no choice but to revoke the priveleges that you have.  
We mean it.
So be warned."
I can't even be bothered to write it in my way. I just wanna remember how much it hurts. How much it hurts? Because every time when I feel like they have trusted me, I'm wrong. I'm always wrong. And tell me, how am I supposed to just plunge in and just do what I can to please them when I don't even know why I gotta do that.
Okay fine, you carried me for 9 months, provide food, water, shelter, education, clothes, money, entertainment, everything a normal child should have. I'm just spoiled. Is that it??
I'm just very embarassed to be their daughter. I can't be what they want me to be. I hate listening to what they tell me to do. Cuz honestly, they dont listen to me. They gimme what they feel it is right. LISTEN!!! CUZ NOT ALL I SAY IS RUBBISH. ahhh forget it
FUCK IT
DONT LISTEN TO ME OKAY. YOU ALL ARE RIGHT.. I dont know why nobody would listen to me. Because I'm really not spoilt, egocentric. Im really not :'(