This post obviously isn't gonna reach you. But, I just wanna say I never got over the grief of losing you. I went to Ng Teng Fong when I overacted about my eye. Found myself back there again today for a follow up. I revisited the memories of the last few moments I shared with you. It was so hard to breathe, cos i kept holding back my tears and my heart ached so hard.
I even found a lil presence of you while loitering in the vicinity of the hospital. It makes me wanna work there now, the memories I have of you come alive. And it almost feels like you're still here and I'm protected. It's really quite comforting but, wrong, i know :( I miss you Mama. I found this place, near to the hospital. And I work there. It all feels so right. But, Mama, it's not gonna last, I would have to leave. And so will this good feeling.
I don't want to feel alone again, to feel at lost or stressed to fitting into another random location. I don't know what to do. Is it too much and selfish to be asking for a miracle? Because my life is just sad.
